Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Omelas Seminar Reflection

I had a lot of reactions to this seminar because there were so many different types of ideas that made sense to me and I liked and agreed with most of them. A lot of them had to do with finding happiness and how when you have happiness you have to have suffering. I was and am still a little confused on this matter because realistically, yes that does make sense to me but do we really need suffering to find happiness? It makes sense in most ways because without suffering, how do we really know what happiness is? In the end, I think you do need a little bit of suffering to find happiness. A lot of the time it’s not we who are suffering, its others who are suffering for your benefit and we have been raised so that this is ok and we don’t know any other way. In this story, the majority of Omelas seems to understand that it is ok and that their life depends on this child’s misery. In “The Ones Who Walk Away from Omelas, paragraph 9,” Ursula states, “Some of them understand why, and some do not, but they all understand that their happiness, the beauty of their city, the tenderness of their friendships, the health of their children, the wisdom of their scholars, the skill of their makers, even the abundance of their harvest and the kindly weathers of their skies, depend wholly on this child’s abominable misery.” I’m not sure how this works out, but if another thing we discussed is true, which is this being a metaphor for our world I can see how this young child relates to the third world countries. In third world countries, the suffering of the people is how we get our clothing, our jewelry, our chocolate, etc. and without them, we wouldn’t know what to do. Another topic mentioned in our Seminar but I disagreed to was that the people of Omelas should just take turns being the suffering child. This was said because then you would feel better about yourself because you would know that people are happy because of your suffering and you can switch off. This didn’t make any sense to me though, because your not solving anything, your just creating a huge circle that takes turns suffering and being happy. Why not try to find a way to have happiness but base it off your own suffering, not the suffering of others?


When I try connecting this short story to anything, I always think of blood diamond because it has a lot to do with benefitting off the suffering of others and that is what this story is about. The people working in Africa, not being treated very fairly represent the child in the room with no windows. While the people that get to wear the diamonds are only the people who can afford them and don’t have to worry about where they got them from are the people of Omelas. This comes up a lot though with sweatshops in India, China and many third world countries. That’s only half of the bad part though, the other half is that we don’t know better. This is how we were raised and yes, some people are aware of it but not enough are aware or even care enough to change anything about it.



Why does the author think we can't describe happiness in our society (line 37)?

When Ursula says that we can’t describe happiness in our society I almost agree with her because a lot of our happiness is based off of what society tells us to be happy with, not with what is true happiness. Do we really know what true happiness is though? Have we been so influenced with other peoples ideas of happiness that we don’t know our own idea of being happy? In this story, the author talks about the people of society being very happy, almost too happy to convince anybody. In “The Ones Who Walk Away from Omelas, paragraph 3,” Ursula says, “ For instance how about technology? I think that there would be no cars or helicopters in and above the streets; this follows from the fact that the people of Omelas are happy people. Happiness is based on a just discrimination of what is necessary, what is neither necessary nor destructive, and what is destructive.” When she says that happiness is based on what is necessary is where it ties into our society because so many things in our society are not necessary but we think they are. All the advertisements look so good, therefore it makes us want them and makes us feel like if we don’t have them we are ‘suffering.’ We don’t really know what happiness is because we wouldn’t be able to describe it without including a device that makes us feel joy and not just describing inner happiness.

• How is this town that sounds so amazing based off of the suffering of this one child?
• How do they choose this child? What is it based on?
• Is it useless to try to solve a problem, even if you know nothing will help or be solved?
If you are trying to solve a problem you should know at the beginning if it’s going to cause suffering in the end or not. A lot of depression, anxiety and irritation we put ourselves through by seeing suffering as unfavorable, is something to be avoided at all costs. In the end though, it is kind of useless. Think about how much trouble it causes. You should try to look at things knowing whether it’s going to cause suffering or not and should be able to tell close to the beginning. If we can do something to solve a problem, then there is no need to worry or be unhappy about it; if we can’t, then it doesn’t help to worry or be unhappy about it either. As long as we don’t get anxious or irritated, then our mind will enable us to bear the hardest of sufferings easily. But, if we are dominated by anxiety, even the smallest problem becomes extremely hard to cope with.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Project Reflection

When we first started this project I was so against learning anything even about poetry! I hated it. As the time went on and we started breaking down poetry and learning how to understand it I started appreciating it much more. I think I didn’t like it because it was too hard to understand for me. We started reading new poems every day for starters, and seminars. My favorite poems were the kinetic text ones. Kinetic text is a visual of a poem that acts out whatever is going on in the poem. If it says ‘shooting’ it will project the word like it is shooting across the screen. I don’t do so well with computers because I don’t understand how to use them and so I knew I didn’t want to do kinetic text even with how much I enjoyed watching it. I started to break down what I enjoyed learning this year which was genocide and Buddhism. I talked with my teacher Lori and decided that I didn’t want to write about anything happy and genocide is not happy and so that worked out. Once I decided that I wanted to focus on the experience of rape I chose to explain how after such an awful experience you have to keep striving forward and that is where the Buddhism tied in. During this project I learned how to break down poetry and how after anything that is so violent, you need to keep living your life as best you can. Knowing you cannot change anything or even forget anything, you can use the past to help you create your future.

During this process of how to use writing I learned that the more pauses, and emotion, and action you put into your project the more you will engage your audience. This is so hard for some people! Including me. I am not the person I am on stage because I have a lot of stage fright. I am proud of myself for overcoming that fear and reciting my poem to a room full of people. even if I didn’t have as many pauses or umph that I would have liked to have I am still very proud of the outcome to my performance and poem.

Cora Kilgo

I used two of my favorite readings from this year; We wish to inform you that tomorrow we will be killed with our families and Being Peace. This inspired me because during a genocide you are going through so many things. So many mixed emotions with your family dying and your villages burning. I have never been through anything like this before. After something as intense as this happens, you need to be able to keep living in the moment. Yes it will be very hard because you wont forget the past but you need to find a new road to follow. You and me have to find that place where we are living in the moment but we cant completely escape the past. This is a good reminder for people who have had a rough start, or a rough past, it is a reminder that yes, you can start over and make better decisions even though you have those memories to live with.

As an influence I wanted to use a poem because I knew that would be a challenge for me. I have never enjoyed poetry as much as I do now and it is a great feeling! Reading poetry gives you a new image of whatever you are looking at and it makes you feel accomplished once you have broken it down. I knew for my poem I wanted to have a lot of imagery and different words to create different senses which are; sound, touch and image. A poem we focused on for a while was, Dulce Et Decorum Est. This means it is sweet and right. This poem is about war, and soldiers in war. The author, Wilfred Owen, uses so many great words to create such images in your head of the dreadful, lagging ideas of war.
“Gas! Gas! Quick boys! - An ecstasy of fumbling, fitting the clumsy helmets just in time; but someone still was yelling out and stumbling, and flound’ring like a man in fire or lime… dim, through the misty panes and thick green light.”
When you read that you imagine a group of soldiers jumping out of being scared to death with gas oozing everywhere creating a deathly fog. This was an inspiration because I want for the readers to be very impressed and feel like they are there and can feel, see and hear what is going on.

For the past month and a half our starters to the class have been focused on poetry with all different kinds of performances. I would have to say that my favorite ones were the ones with the kinetic text. Kinetic text is where words in poems are emphasized and acted out to what they mean. I knew that I didn’t want to use kinetic text because I do not enjoy using computers or really even getting to know them but I love how much emphasis all of these poems had. One of the starters we did was called ‘Direct Orders.’ It was about a lot of different things but mostly how you need to spend your life living like it is your last day! Live life to the fullest and don’t take anything for advantage. During this poem, Anis Modjgani, uses such umph and shows such passion when he is speaking each word. When people see my project and hear me say it, I want them to know that I put a lot of hard work in and that it came straight from the heart.

Settling the Storm

Tossed into the inescapable current,
I took a breath when I could.

Remembering the screams, terror, cries,
Like a terrified creature.
Heavy grunts, and cold laughter,
While my mother lay there helpless,
Her sobs were silent,
For there was so much pain.
Having no control,
I whimpered.
A tear-
Dripped off of my face,
Hitting the ground, shattering, like the sound of glass.
As I came back from that horrible memory.

As rivers flow,
So must I.

Seeing the sweat drip off of the soldiers face,
All I wanted to do was scream out of disgust.
I was frozen.
His body rubbing against my mother,
Creating friction.
The person who brought me into this world,
Who taught me to wash my clothes,
Bathe my baby brother.
I watched her face,
Horror.
His smug face of victory, his hand smothering her,
Like a suffocating flame
Grasping at my own throat,
Choke me back into the NOW.

When roads end I do not stop,
I create a new one to follow.

Before the soldiers left,
Leaving footprints with their heavy boots covered in mud,
They made one last violent effort.
They shot her,
The gunshot still lingers in the air,
My mother.
She lay there motionless
With blood streaming from her head,
Creating a puddle for her to lie in.
The blood as red as a velvet blanket,
Covering a dimmer world,
Their thick steps echoed
As they guiltlessly fled.

If the stones were seen as a path, not an obstacle,
I could find my way.

Finding a spot, to hold onto tight.
Where the memories have faded,
Like footprints on a shore, the current flows over
The vivid memories I only want to forget.
Knowing I can’t go back to change anything,
I must go forward.
Using the past to create a fresh path,
Taking me down a new road,
Where I make my own reality.
Using the past as stepping stones to create a different outlook.
But keeping in mind,
That I have to make peace with what was.
As the storm settles,
I realize it is the hefty clouds that make up a beautiful sunset.

After a rugged ascension,
Here- is where I rest.

Jihad vs McWorld


I’m not sure what the exact question was but I do it went along the lines of whether or not we think Mc World will really win and how this has affected us. This just made me think whether or not I thought Mc World was already in progress or whether we were in the middle or where in life we are at today. I definitely believe that we are right in between these two; Jihad and Mc World. Maybe leaning more towards Mc World because we are a technology based world. Even though maybe not everybody in the world owns a computer which is 1% of the world, a lot of people still do have access to a computer. Even though this reading was very confusing and hard to grip at and even though it might have seemed like I didn’t enjoy it, I did because it made me look at the world and future in a different way. It made me realize that we do need to question things and have our own opinion about everything, and to not let ourselves be brainwashed. If we did, and because we are aware of this, I feel that it would fall into the area of hegemony. Now that we are aware of everything and realize what is happening to the world, we still want the newest iPhone and the newest iPod. This is a serious matter because it is so easy to fall into letting all of the commercials and consumerism into your life because of course so many people want the newest and most updated technology gadget. We just need to find a happy medium and be aware of it.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Geopoliticus Child

As the man slowly exploded from the egg shaped earth, mother nature pointed tiredly at him. She pointed as if it was her last point, as if she had no energy left inside of her except for this one movement. She looked as if once she dropped her arm she was going to wither to the ground. Her body was skinny to the point where you could see her ribs, but muscular to the point where you could see the curves of every muscle in her body. The figure she was pointing to was a broad, muscular person. As if he was just being born, but being born a full grown man. He was rising out of the United States area of the globe shaped egg. It seemed as if she had seem something like this happen before, like it wasn’t a big deal at all. It just looked like it was causing her pain, as if she was birthing the child.

The atmosphere they were in and where the egg was placed, looked dry and old. Not an ideal area where anybody would want to be, or live. It did look as if one day, a long time ago, it had a been a beautiful place but not now. Now it looked as if it hadn’t seen a beautiful day in a while, only pain and sorrow. This world was treated as the world is being treated combined. When an oil spill happened, it would leak onto this world and almost instantly impact it negatively. Because of the timing in this painting, after World War I, is the answer to why this world is doing so poorly. Most people are in a morning, sorrow mood, not a joyous one, therefore it reflects onto this world in the most negative way. As the person comes out of the egg, a little puddle of blood slips out, but has the consistency of egg yolk, not blood. This adds to the affect of not being violent and insane, but just adds to the sorrow mood. If this were to keep happening, mother nature would eventually shrivel up and die which would lead up to the rest of the world dying. The world is flexible but only for so long.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Project Reflection

When we first started this project I was so against learning anything even about poetry! I hated it. As the time went on and we started breaking down poetry and learning how to understand it I started appreciating it much more. I think I didn’t like it because it was too hard to understand for me. We started reading new poems every day for starters, and seminars. My favorite poems were the kinetic text ones. Kinetic text is a visual of a poem that acts out whatever is going on in the poem. If it says ‘shooting’ it will project the word like it is shooting across the screen. I don’t do so well with computers because I don’t understand how to use them and so I knew I didn’t want to do kinetic text even with how much I enjoyed watching it. I started to break down what I enjoyed learning this year which was genocide and Buddhism. I talked with my teacher Lori and decided that I didn’t want to write about anything happy and genocide is not happy and so that worked out. Once I decided that I wanted to focus on the experience of rape I chose to explain how after such an awful experience you have to keep striving forward and that is where the Buddhism tied in. During this project I learned how to break down poetry and how after anything that is so violent, you need to keep living your life as best you can. Knowing you cannot change anything or even forget anything, you can use the past to help you create your future.

During this process of how to use writing I learned that the more pauses, and emotion, and action you put into your project the more you will engage your audience. This is so hard for some people! Including me. I am not the person I am on stage because I have a lot of stage fright. I am proud of myself for overcoming that fear and reciting my poem to a room full of people. even if I didn’t have as many pauses or umph that I would have liked to have I am still very proud of the outcome to my performance and poem.

Cora Kilgo

I used two of my favorite readings from this year; We wish to inform you that tomorrow we will be killed with our families and Being Peace. This inspired me because during a genocide you are going through so many things. So many mixed emotions with your family dying and your villages burning. I have never been through anything like this before. After something as intense as this happens, you need to be able to keep living in the moment. Yes it will be very hard because you wont forget the past but you need to find a new road to follow. You and me have to find that place where we are living in the moment but we cant completely escape the past. This is a good reminder for people who have had a rough start, or a rough past, it is a reminder that yes, you can start over and make better decisions even though you have those memories to live with.

As an influence I wanted to use a poem because I knew that would be a challenge for me. I have never enjoyed poetry as much as I do now and it is a great feeling! Reading poetry gives you a new image of whatever you are looking at and it makes you feel accomplished once you have broken it down. I knew for my poem I wanted to have a lot of imagery and different words to create different senses which are; sound, touch and image. A poem we focused on for a while was, Dulce Et Decorum Est. This means it is sweet and right. This poem is about war, and soldiers in war. The author, Wilfred Owen, uses so many great words to create such images in your head of the dreadful, lagging ideas of war.
“Gas! Gas! Quick boys! - An ecstasy of fumbling, fitting the clumsy helmets just in time; but someone still was yelling out and stumbling, and flound’ring like a man in fire or lime… dim, through the misty panes and thick green light.”
When you read that you imagine a group of soldiers jumping out of being scared to death with gas oozing everywhere creating a deathly fog. This was an inspiration because I want for the readers to be very impressed and feel like they are there and can feel, see and hear what is going on.

For the past month and a half our starters to the class have been focused on poetry with all different kinds of performances. I would have to say that my favorite ones were the ones with the kinetic text. Kinetic text is where words in poems are emphasized and acted out to what they mean. I knew that I didn’t want to use kinetic text because I do not enjoy using computers or really even getting to know them but I love how much emphasis all of these poems had. One of the starters we did was called ‘Direct Orders.’ It was about a lot of different things but mostly how you need to spend your life living like it is your last day! Live life to the fullest and don’t take anything for advantage. During this poem, Anis Modjgani, uses such umph and shows such passion when he is speaking each word. When people see my project and hear me say it, I want them to know that I put a lot of hard work in and that it came straight from the heart.

Settling the Storm

Tossed into the inescapable current,
I took a breath when I could.

Remembering the screams, terror, cries,
Like a terrified creature.
Heavy grunts, and cold laughter,
While my mother lay there helpless,
Her sobs were silent,
For there was so much pain.
Having no control,
I whimpered.
A tear-
Dripped off of my face,
Hitting the ground, shattering, like the sound of glass.
As I came back from that horrible memory.

As rivers flow,
So must I.

Seeing the sweat drip off of the soldiers face,
All I wanted to do was scream out of disgust.
I was frozen.
His body rubbing against my mother,
Creating friction.
The person who brought me into this world,
Who taught me to wash my clothes,
Bathe my baby brother.
I watched her face,
Horror.
His smug face of victory, his hand smothering her,
Like a suffocating flame
Grasping at my own throat,
Choke me back into the NOW.

When roads end I do not stop,
I create a new one to follow.

Before the soldiers left,
Leaving footprints with their heavy boots covered in mud,
They made one last violent effort.
They shot her,
The gunshot still lingers in the air,
My mother.
She lay there motionless
With blood streaming from her head,
Creating a puddle for her to lie in.
The blood as red as a velvet blanket,
Covering a dimmer world,
Their thick steps echoed
As they guiltlessly fled.

If the stones were seen as a path, not an obstacle,
I could find my way.

Finding a spot, to hold onto tight.
Where the memories have faded,
Like footprints on a shore, the current flows over
The vivid memories I only want to forget.
Knowing I can’t go back to change anything,
I must go forward.
Using the past to create a fresh path,
Taking me down a new road,
Where I make my own reality.
Using the past as stepping stones to create a different outlook.
But keeping in mind,
That I have to make peace with what was.
As the storm settles,
I realize it is the hefty clouds that make up a beautiful sunset.

After a rugged ascension,
Here- is where I rest.

Dulce De Decorum Est Seminar Reflection

When we were talking about the importance of a picture in comparison to the importance of a quote, Ian said, “In a picture, the picture asks, do you see? And in a poem, the poem asks, do you understand?” I really enjoyed this because I personally have a lot of trouble with enjoying poetry because not all of it has a understandable meaning or you have to fish around until you understand it. It’s a challenge to read and I’m just barely getting used to it and almost beginning to enjoy it! When I see a picture I look at it and maybe ponder over what grief or happiness it brings and it lets my imagination roam and wonder what else was happening during that time, because when a photo is taken, it is only a snap shot of that moment. When I read a poem, at the end your left with a space that you have to fill or figure out. There are so many descriptive words used and it creates several images in your head which is a whole new experience in comparison to just looking at a picture.

At the beginning I had some trouble with interpreting the poetry, and I still do but I have gotten better at it. I am looking at it as a new way to read, a new way to see something because when you read a book you are given the answers. When you read a poem, you have to seek the answers. It doesn’t just come to you, you have to break it down and maybe learn some new phrases or history along with the author of the poem. Poems have a different way of moving you and making you excited with all of the vocabulary and imagery then a piece of normal writing does.

This statement is definitely based on an opinion. It depends about how an individual feels about war. You could strongly believe in what your country is doing, or strongly believe in fighting for your country, being a good citizen but it would never be sweet. There are so many horrors that come with war, I don’t ever see dying being sweet. I could see people being happy from what they died for and that could be a satisfaction for some people. In the end you agree with this statement if you strongly believe in what you’re doing but if you don’t then no I don’t think it would be a ‘sweet’ death.

Being Peace Seinar Reflection




During this ‘Being Peace Seminar’ there were a lot of connections made such as relating to what we had been learning with Jihad and Mc World, connections to some peoples personal lives, and also to a bigger picture of real life suffering and how it relates to us by comparing it to sweatshops in China.  The suffering in China happens all over the world, and it relates to the eleventh mindfulness training.  In “The Being Peace article, page 100,” the author, Thich Nhat Hanh states, “Aware of global economic, political, and social realities, we will be have responsible as consumers and as citizens, not investing in companies that deprive others of their chance to live.” The bad thing is, is that this is not the only  circumstance that suffering happens so that other peoples lives are benefited. Another example would have to do with diamonds in Africa.  Many people suffer and die so that the people who can afford these diamonds can have them easily, without any suffering. The people who find and work for these diamonds don’t even get a share pay. There are many more examples such as something I studied recently which is the Guatemalan Genocide, but the people that were working for the fruit company finally realized that they were not receiving what they truly earned and that created a genocide.  Like I said, there are many more examples but just being aware of some of them is a start.

How does this relate to your life if you are not a Buddhist?
If you are not Buddhist, I think that this relates to your life by just realizing that all of this is present, and its good to be aware of all of this.  I think that everybody has a hard time with living in the present because it’s hard when everything you know is from the past and gaining wisdom, trust, respect all comes from building off of something and its hard to forget the roots of where it comes from to get to where you are in that moment. Not to mention being worried about the future and what is going to happen with time but just taking deep breaths and once again, coming back to that moment. In “The Being Peace Article, page 96” Thich Nhat Hanh says, “We will try not to lose ourselves in dispersion or be carried away by regrets about the past, worries about the future, or craving, anger, or jealousy in the present. We will practice mindful breathing to come back to what is happening in the present moment.” Even if you aren’t studying Buddhism or aren’t Buddhist, you should be aware of how to live in the present.

A major connection to this article and how this relates to your life if you aren’t a Buddhist is relating all of this to Jihad and Mc World.  Mc World  is majorly based on technology and not living in the moment. If this world fell into the hands of technology nobody would be living in the moment. Most everybody would be living in the world of computers, video games, and cell phones. When you are texting somebody or emailing somebody you aren’t living in the present, your living almost in the future… wondering what their response will be and how they will react to your question or statement but you would never be fully alone unless you really tried. Does reading a book allow you to be alone though? Even though you are alone without other distractions, it’s not like you’re reading your own thoughts, you’re still not in your own moment because you are reading the thoughts of someone else.  In “Being Peace,” page 96, the Seventh Mindfulness Training, Thich Nhat Hanh says, “This mindfulness training is in the middle. It is the heart of the Fourteen Mindfulness Trainings, the most important one: to live in awareness.”  As a world, and as people we need to find ways to balance all of the new technology, and keeping to yourself at times. You cant always be caught up in the lives of others, its already a lot to keep up with yourself.

Some questions I still have about this text are:
1.     What would happen if the whole world was influenced and practiced Buddhism?  There are a few answers to this question, it just depends on how you look at it and if your able to look past that it probably wont ever happen.  If the whole world practiced Buddhism, I feel that the world would be a lot more peaceful and there wouldn’t be as many hatred or wars because everybody would be at peace with themselves and everybody would have accepted that “life is suffering” and therefore, less people would be upset with what they don’t have.
2.     With time, do you think that Buddhism will come to more peoples likings? Well… I think that it would be hard for it to come to more peoples senses because a lot of people probably wouldn’t like what they found if they just sat and thought for a little. Also, it takes a lot of effort to carve out thirty minutes to an hour of your day out to sit down and meditate. At the beginning of this week I said to my group, “ I am going to meditate soon and see how it goes.” I still haven’t sat down for even ten minutes to just think. It doesn’t sound like its hard and it probably isn’t if I tried harder but I still need to reach that goal I set at the beginning of the week. Hopefully soon.
3.     Do monks and nuns have a lot in common? I don’t know a lot about nuns and I now know more about monks but I still can’t really tell what they do and don’t have in common except along the lines of marriage and loving but are nuns allowed to get married before they become nuns or after? That’s one area where they differ because monks are allowed, but are monks allowed to get married after they become a monk and decide to stop living like one? Hmm…

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Guatemalan Genocide Project

Domingo and Maria

During the time period, 1960-1996, the Guatemalan people suffered through the brutality of a genocide committed by the Guatemalan government towards the indigenous people. The Guatemalan army and U.S. wanted to overthrow the communist government and therefore the U.S. gave the army weapons, money and training to make that possible. After having all of the training, the army used the excuse of the Mayan Indians to start a genocide towards the indigenous people of Guatemala. This war was the economic discrimination and racism practiced against the indigenous people. Although the dark-skinned native Guatemalans constitute more than half the nations population, they are landless. While white skinned descendants of European immigrants to Guatemala controlled most of the land. Between the years of 1960 and 1990, 200,000 Guatemalans were killed.

Genocide means the deliberate and systematic extermination of a national, racial, political or cultural group. The Guatemalan government committed this crime towards their own people and it all sums down to the fact that they had different shades of skin and that the native people of the land felt they were not being treated fairly or paid fairly for that matter. The whiter people felt that they were superior to the darker people and that is how the genocide began. During a testimony in Spain a Quiche woman, Feliciana, from Guatemala city, states, “There were so many shots they sounded like Christmas fireworks. We never knew why they were killing us.” The people, government, army, committed this genocide against their own people because the indigenous people felt that they were being treated unfairly and expressed that towards the government in a violent way. The government is a system of rule by state, a community is governed. A government is supposed to help, lead and support your country, not commit crimes towards it.

While researching this Genocide I found it interesting that the government would do all of this and then try to apologize by paying the people back with millions of dollars. Many people died and then the government tries to pay for the lost lives. In the article “Payments and Apologies for victims of Guatemala’s Civil WarWashingtonpost.com,” the author describes an interview that states a man, “Lost 16 relatives, including his mother and father, in the army’s scorched earth campaign against leftist Guerillas. Five years after applying for compensation, his family received $5,400 from the state a few months ago and an official apology, you can’t pay for a life,” Velasco said. Money doesn’t grant forgiveness but I am sure that it was appreciated.

The idea of our project is to have two sides being the U.S. and also having an indigenous view point. We chose the U.S. because they supported the genocide by training and supplying the army with money and weapons. The indigenous people are the other side because they were the targets. These two sides are very opposite and that’s why it’s good to have the different points of view on this project.  On the indigenous side of the project, there will be two masks representing two of the targets during the genocide. We will have actual testimonies that happened after the genocide and therefore this will all be real life experiences of people who were actually there and lived through a tragic life.

When I think of a project at Animas High School I think of expressing what you’ve learned in a way that YOU want to focus on and are interested in. personally I am not interested on one certain thing but I do love art and I want to work on my writing skills. I found this project to be perfect for both of those. Making masks and having stories with them is a good way to tie those things together. 

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Maria (Mask to the left) 

Maria was the first witness during the testimony in Spain. She was born in Choyomche, a rural village in Guatemala. She is the eldest of six siblings, and married at fifteen to Gaspar C., with whom she had ten children.

Looking back on the horrific events that occurred at the time of the Guatemalan genocide, Maria, a genocide victim, articulates the pain and loss she experienced at the merciless hand of the Guatemalan Army. During Maria’s testimony in Spain she tells us about the brutality of the army: “They constantly threatened to kill the male children in our village, saying they should die because they were bad people, “semillas del mal” [seeds of the guerillas]. My family scattered. I had to send away all my sons, because if the military caught them they would be killed.” For two years Maria’s family had to run from village to village being chased  by the army. To find food they had to go to the Quiche markets but once patrollers were installed it was impossible to make it there. Just barely surviving, they had to make due with eating berries. During Maria’s “Testimony in Spain,” she states, “I was with two of my children in the mountains and it was terrible. Thinking about it now makes me want to cry. They were both starving. They were nothing but bones.”

After two years of continuous running, Maria’s family returned to their home but still didn’t have any food. She decided to try to pass through various ravines to get to the market in Chichicastenango, the El Quiche department of Guatemala, so that she could buy food for her children.  She went to the market six times and every time, soldiers would maltreat her and accuse her of buying food for guerilla parties but every time she just said that it was for her children. On her way home from her sixth visit to the market she was caught in a ravine with one of her children and some soldiers asked her what all of the food was for but she got scared and didn’t answer. The soldiers got mad and threw her food and child on the ground while a man held her to the ground and two of them raped her.  When they left she grabbed her daughter, leaving all the food and ran home.

Telling her husband about this, he was not supportive whatsoever. Maria quotes him during her testimony, “He said I was to blame for having left the house instead of staying with the children. He said it was only because we were living in such a difficult situation that he pardoned me; otherwise he would have slit my throat for putting myself in a situation where I could be raped.” Maria found a different way to get to the market by crossing several rivers and that is how she supplied her children with food until the Genocide was over. 



 Domingo 

Domingo was born in Canton Xenub, a rural village in Guatemala: one of seven children, he grew up learning to farm with his father and brothers. The massacres arrived in his village in 1981. For two full years his family ran from community to community, trying to escape the violence.  Domingo lost his parents and five of his siblings during this genocide.

Before the genocide, Domingo’s family had a difficult life but it was peaceful.  They picked coffee beans on the coast. The first disruption for his family happened during a fiesta, a party, 6 people were kidnapped and found dead later. Domingo states during his testimony in Spain: “We didn’t know why, but that is were it began.” The army returned days later and started doing the mass killings.  There were eight left of his family and they fled into the mountains.  Domingo’s family went back to collect their things from their home but found everything gone or burned.  While his family was living in the mountains the army caught them and killed 80 of the people that were hiding in the same place.

In 1982, Domingo’s family moved to Churexa to escape the army. In May 1982, Domingo’s father and two brothers and him were sowing their field for three days. When they returned to the house they found the rest of the family gone; his mother, three sisters, and his niece.  Domingo also states during his testimony: “I learned later from two patrollers that they were killed. We don’t know where they are buried. So there were only four of us left, we stayed alone, fleeing the patrollers.” Domingo and his family were laborers for the United Fruit Company and of indigenous ancestry. Because of this, the patrollers were persistent in ensuring the capturing and death of Domingo’s family.   

Domingo’s family and the rest of the people in the area realized there wasn’t anything left to do in the area they were in, and decided to migrate to another place to hide, in Zacualpa. They were there for three days but the patrollers caught up to them to kill them.  They killed a total of about sixty people. Domingo tells us during his testimony: “I was together with my papa and two brothers. We were able to run away more quickly because we were men, but the women and small children lagged behind and they were killed. We snuck back after we were sure the soldiers were gone. We saw the dead people. Some of them had no heads, others lay there with their throats cut.”

In April 1983, soldiers and patrollers surrounded and attacked Xolbalchai, where what was left of Domingo’s family had gone to live and hide. Before they arrived, his family had heard that  the army was coming. Hearing this, Domingo’s father went to investigate but Domingo stayed working in the field.  When Domingo heard shots going off and then saw one hundred patrollers approaching, he hid under a pile of leaves. Domingo recalls this brutality and shares with the jury in Spain: “They killed my father and one of my brothers, then my other brother. So only my sister and I were left from a family of nine.”



Project Reflection 

Thinking about this project and realizing how long it took to figure everything out on what we were doing I would say that I am most proud of  the stories I wrote on the two survivors, Domingo and Maria. Writing those stories I had to figure out a way to mix my writing into their experiences and tragic lives with it still making sense and being enjoyable and interesting to read.  I also enjoyed doing this because it was incredible to find out what other people were going through and how people lived their lives with their families dying and having to run their whole life while towards the end of it I was just being born and still, I didn’t know anything of this genocide until this project. It shows how unaware, as a teen I am of the rest of the world and how much I have to learn throughout my life time.

If I had one more week to work on this project I don’t think I would refine anything on the actual project but I think that I would stop just skipping around in the book, I, Rigoberta Menchu, and just read the whole thing. Reading this entire book I feel would have helped me understand everything a little bit more. It would have helped me have a greater understanding of what I was talking about and assisted me in knowing more inside information on the indigenous people of Guatemala and what they were going through.

Out of all four areas of the rubric, id say we/I was strongest in the Audience Engagement section. I think this because the way our project was set up, especially having the American flag engaged the audience because people were curious as to what the U.S. had to do with this genocide.  And that is just the physical appearance of the project, once people were engaged they asked questions and we knew our information pretty well which also ties into audience engagement because it showed we knew what we were talking about and had the information on this genocide down.

In our project, id say the weakest aspect would be the connections aspect of it. The stories and information in the stories weren’t weak but I think that on the masks, instead of putting random symbols on their faces we could have found some that meant something or related to the genocide in some way. I could have researched Mayan symbols and they could have had a specific meaning to their lives or the genocide. Maybe not even symbols that portrayed the symbols but symbols that meant loss, or love, or sorrow, etc.  The main improvement would have been to have more meaning on the masks.

The scores I think I received in each of these categories would be; Professionalism- A, Connections- B, Focus-B+, Audience Engagement- A. For this project we worked really hard on understanding everything about the project and worked hard on how to portray it with the masks and using the U.S. flag to represent how the United States was involved. There could have been a few revisions in understanding some things but I still believe I earned a lower A.  A 94% seems reasonable or maybe a little lower but hopefully I have evidence of how hard we worked and why I believe I earned this.